It Takes 2

There is no excuse for me being such a procrastinator with keeping up with my blog. I am not going to rant on there is so little time to put down in words thoughts, events or just plain gossip. So, I will not.
As usual there are certain events that slap you in the face and makes you ponder about you surroundings. For me it was the untimely death of Heath Ledger a few days ago.
Everyone knows that my heart-stealing actor is Jake Gyllenhaal, but I would do a disservice to the movie that was Brokeback Mountain if I didn't acknowledge how this actor made a complex and deep character available to the masses and especially to the gay followers.
I have to admit that before Ennis Delmar he was not in my radar (blonds don't do ti much for me...with the exception of Ronnie in Make me a Supermodel), after BM I went back to discover that I had actually seen his good performance in other flicks without noticing who he really was. Time has made me more cynical and I am not going to go all mushy saying that this event changed my life. I will however confess that tragic and sudden events do have pro-catatonic effects on my behavior.
Being the spontaneous person that I am it always shocks me when random life events can make me shiver and afraid... Have I done enough? Do I sabotage my search for love? am I doing it right?
It is hard to ask people close to you for details on what we might be doing wrong, people are afraid of pointing out errors on others afraid of finding those same mistakes in themselves. Maybe mishaps are all we have to feel alive?